Since I got a new piano, I figured I’d try something a little different with this song: Rather than recording and produce it all up, I though it might be a fun little change of pace to do a videotaped performance on the new piano. So, thanks to my (awesome) digital SLR, a nice little shotgun mic, and my rockin’ new piano, here’s the video of Choosing.
This song was inspired by a friend of mine who’s been stuck in a very unhealthy relationship for a couple of years. She knows that she needs to move on, but is terrified of what that means. So, as a result, she’s essentially chosen not to choose. I can relate.
I’ve decided that I wanted to start writing some songs in a little more theatrical of a style. I have such a background in musical theater, it just makes sense. Plus, the emotional, soaring ballads are my favorite anyway. This is very much a rough draft of the song…I may change the structure or melody still, but I like the basic feel of it so far.
Music & Lyrics by Matt Armstrong
Now that I’ve chosen
I can’t decide
If, in the choosing, I chose wrong
Or I chose right
If my decisions
Cast me aside
Now that the choosing’s done
Am I the one
Who has to abide
The choice left behind
Now that it’s over
Now that it’s done
I can stand here feeling guilty
Or move on.
Step off or postpone
Now it’s time to wake life
Step forward and taste life
Time to shout it from the rooftops,
"I am here.
There is something deep inside of me still living."
Raise the curtain just in time for my premiere.
I’m breaking down walls I’ve built
Of all of my anger, guilt, and fear.
The choices are clear.
So, this is choosing.
Why so resigned?
Choosing to choose is, well, not easy
But it’s time.
Choosing a future
Free from my past
Wow. I can’t believe
I finally chose